Flaccidity

You've sold me with the result of your hate. I've kindly let myself avoid all common ground on which you walk. This has not been done in anger, but as a sure way to survive. There is always this singe when you speak, intolerable projection. A voice that burns with apathy and a mouth that will always be perceived as a cynics. What love do you wish to receive when all your subject can focus on is the question of whether they deserve to live at all? Self Destruction ; His war waged upon himself. Awake in the night. Pain rippling No longer breathing Clutching skin ripping. Savior dead. Love slaughtered. This resurrection will not

Tripping acid bleak beneath roused faces I fought the war upon which you laid. Don't ask me why I do these things. Do you know what you are anyway? Broad perspectives in how to live manuals. I never thought you a writer anyhow. Sleep on a park bench and know what it is to wake to the naked sun. Take in my breath of chemicals and know my contentment. I am the whole of a person you cannot be.

The way I feel about you, it overwhelms me. There's something so undeniably precious about these smiles you inspire. Sitting beside you this passion grows in me, I can feel it expanding. It presses on my stomach and eventually my lungs, filling me. No anxiety, your eyes take it all away. Your eyes, they bandage my insecurities. The more difficult things about me, those things that crumble others, you withstand. These shadows within me, you've sought to brighten them. You are the solace I've sought since infancy.

Give it all up for the idea of something clearer, stronger. If only these sentiments meant something to us, inspired us. My head shatters with each sounding echo. What happened to our music? This dance, once a delightful dose of dizziness now seems menacing, exhausting. I quit writing for it never served me, saved me, but tonight these roots below me expose themselves in such a way. My fingers again burn with purpose. Zealous attempts to disengage thoughts of you Promises I never spoke aloud, I'm breaking for you. Dismiss thought, Disengage.   Forfeit the fallacy, the many clever facades. These things that are ever am